sly_salkie

Playing Lotro, playing Plants vs Zombies, cooking, working, trying to exercise (ha!), trying to eat well (ha! stupid mondays. All good goals do fine on Mondays, and by Fridays they are shot to hell). Work's been severely annoying lately. Annoying and kind of worrying, but it's always, always worrying.

I have a busy month planned. I don't like busy months! But December should be very un-busy, in theory, as long as I don't make a whole bunch of commitments. I'm super duper poor right now, which makes me sad. I can't afford anything. I could probably stand to spend less on food, but...I love food.

Do you know what's really bad? Watching America's Next Top Model when it's on marathon because you don't feel like getting off the couch. There is nothing good about that show.

New computer, which is just awesome awesome awesome.  My computer died a few weeks ago. It was very sad. I couldn't play games, and I got addicted to TV out of sheer boredom.

30 minutes into the game, and I am in love with Disgaea 2. I think I was in love with it before that.

Also, I'm rapidly gaining weight due to not walking due to the heat. Summer heat makes me loathe the thought of exercise, but it doesn't decrease my appetite at all. This makes me sad. Time to get back to work on that. I miss having the energy to walk every day, though I still do the 3-mile walk a few times/week...unless it's humid all week (like last week). I miss getting to work without being drenched in sweat.

Yesterday I was all like "I'll walk to work, and leave at 8:15 before the temperature shoots up." I left my apartment and noted how nice it was outside.

Five minutes later... "Holy mother of christ, It's fucking hot already. I can't breathe. I guess I'll take the bus. Really though? Five minutes?"

And then five minutes after that, feeling like a raisin at the bus stop with the sun beating on me. Drinking iced coffee and standing perfectly still to keep myself cool, and sweat just pouring. It is damned hot this week. 

Apparently 8:20ish is when god decides to turn on the oven.

Fall, anytime you're ready.

I'm not enjoying these hot days one bit. Fall is right around the corner, right?

Barnaby stayed out last night. Bad kitty. But at least he came when I called first thing this morning. He doesn't pull all-nighters very often...I wonder if he was intent on keeping cool. My apartment didn't cool off well last night, even with 4 fans going.

Work is a real pain in the ass right now. I love the actual tasks I do, like absolutely and utterly am in love with these tasks. I like them as much as/more than drawing, I'd say. But something about going into that building every day feels like a very unhealthy thing for me to be doing. The crazy people are bad crazy. It's a negative environment in many ways. The new deliverable-tracking process we're being forced to use so that the producers can have an easier job of managing milestones doesn't seem to be working for a lot of people and departments, including mine. It's very, very frustrating and feels counterproductive.

What makes me most sad is that I don't have a lunch buddy or lunch group anymore. I don't think I've ever gone more than a month in a place without making close enough work-friends (or school friends) that I can do lunch with them pretty religiously. One lunch buddy was laid off, another broke up with me (and wasn't a reliable lunch buddy to begin with), and the other...well, I won't talk about that one. And now, for about 4 months, I've been pretty damn lonely at work. I pretty much hate eating by myself. I also hate going home to an empty apartment. I hope I learn to enjoy aspects of it.

So yeah, as a result of the above, I have trouble wanting to go to work, even though I love what I do. That makes me sad.

Time to walk to work. Here's to hoping for a nice, neutral day! Hopefully the heat will be the worst thing I have to deal with today. (Unlikely.)

Today I am moving!

Down a flight of stairs, and will live by myself like a grown up in a damned awesome 1-bed.  :)

I would love it if you people wanna come visit at some point. Board games, alcohol, and some form of food. That's what I'm thinking.

I think this change will be pretty super important in regards to getting over my giant 4-year relationship and learning how to be alone when I'm alone and not feel weirded out by the space I'm in.

I <3 my old friends very very much. Thank you Liz, Beth, and Ben!! It was so awesome to see you guys. :) 

I have a doctor's appointment this morning for my cough, and I really don't want to go. It's been a long time since I've had a checkup. I'm not expecting anything good to come of this.

One of my friends from work just got dumped by his girlfriend this weekend. Misery loves company. Sure, I feel terrible for him, but...misery loves company. I won't lie.

Someone at work that I've started talking to has a way of saying/asking things that has a strange effect on me. It's almost as if a shrink made a really simple observation, but this observation happened to trigger a revelation. Most words slide off me and leak out of my ears, and advice is lost on me until I find my own footing, but for some reason a few of the things he's said to me have been beyond helpful as I'm trying to get through this rather shitty time in my life.

Breaking up is so fucking fun.  Facebook really helps.

Why, why do we need teeth? Extract them, please. For the love of god, just take them out.

If this isn't evidence that we're not supposed to be alive for 80+ years, I don't know what is.

The other leg is now shaved, and both armpits.

I just shaved a leg.

Hudsucker Proxy. Holy crap, what a fantastic movie.

*wants to have a city hall wedding*

The wii fit is kicking my ass!! Day 6, pain, pain @_@

Sometimes one's brain gets way, way too full. I don't think I can absorb anything else.

A great deal of slick ice on every walkable surface in sight = not ok. Yeah I don't know how I'm going to get to work today. I hope it melts soon.

Somehow that allergy attack from Saturday night led to a full-fledged plague. I am drowning in snot and roasting in fever. How does that even work? It was an undeniable allergy attack, and now it's an undeniable virus.

I'm having a horrible allergy attack right now. Note to self: vacuum before throttling computer under desk among the dust piles for 15 minutes straight.

Shit in my face is so swollen that my teeth hurt.

I meant to post this before I left. Whatever, I'll post it now.

I am about to see if I can survive walking to work in 14°F weather. Theoretically, if I wear enough layers and cover enough exposed skin, it shouldn't be a problem. All the same, I'm stalling.

Random sidenote: I hate those moments when you suddenly remember something really stupid and naïve you said a long time ago, and an awkward conversation ensued as a result (at the time of the foot-in-mouth). I just recalled two of those such moments, and relived all the subsequent embarrassment. Stupid, stupid!

I totally hate that.